so I'm at the mall and JUST finshed my costume...scariest thing for me. 


PINK dress
Pink hooker heels
and a Bleach Blond wig


...that's right...I'm Barbie

update. over.

 so I'm at hannah's and she just took like 20 bajillion pictures of me...I'm her model I guess. It's been a long run here on livejournal. Some fights were started, ended, and friendships made. This is a good site for venting.


well, It's decided...I can't live with out DJ AND I'msuper jelous of anyone within a 5 foot radius of him cuz I'm..Not...There!!!!!!

So short entry...oh wells XD

Night!!!!

*is skypeing DJ from behind*

 Paranoia sucks...that is about all I'm willing to say 


Also...I think it's real. The forever love where you think "I want to marry this person and be with them for all time" and know it's true in your heart...it's weird that I think it's real but then again I have that : )

Birds by Kate Nash

She was waitin` at the station
he was gettin` off the train
he didn't have a ticket so he had to run through the barriors, again.

well the ticket inspector saw him rushin` through he said, girl you don't know how much i've missed you 
but 
we better run 
cause i havent got the funds to pay 
this
fine 
she said
fine

so they ran out of the station 
and jumped onto a bus with 
two of yesterdays travel cards 
and two bottles of bud
and he said you look well nice.

well she was wearin a skirt 
and he thought she looked nice and
yeah she didn't really care about
anything else because she only
wanted him to think that she looked nice
and he did

but he was lookin' at her yeah
all funny in the eye
she said c`mon boy 
tell me what you're thinkin` now
dont be shy

he said alright i'll try

well the stars up in the sky
and the leaves in the trees
all the broken bits that make you trip up and grassy bits inbetween
all the matter in the world
is how much i like you

she said what?
he said let me try and explain again

right birds can fly so high
and they can shit on your head
yeah they can almost fly into your eye
and make you feel so scared
but when you look at them
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and you see that they're beautiful

thats how i feel about you

right birds can fly so high
and they can shit on your head
yeah they can almost fly into your eye
and make you feel so scared
but when you look at them
and you see that they're beautiful

thats how i feel about you
right, thats how i feel about you

she said what?
he said you
she said what are you talking about?
he said you

right birds can fly so high
and they can shit on your head
yeah they can almost fly into your eye
and make you feel so scared
but when you look at them
and you see that they're beautiful
thats how i feel about you

right birds can fly so high
and they can shit on your head
yeah they can almost fly into your eye
and make you feel well scared
but when you look at them
and you see that they're beautiful
thats how i feel about you

right thats how i feel about you

she said thanks i like you too
he said cool

 It has been awhile and honestly...i'm not that sorry. I'm glad that I'm understanding more about my friends. I feel like i knew nothing about them untill this summer started...the summer before senior year before we all move on and apart. It's not really a depressing subject it's more...enlighting. I feel so much more matured then i did a few weeks ago. I understand so much but know so little and it's such an odd sensation. I'm syced for senior year, moving out, and going to collage. I still know nothing about were I'm going. 
   My only fear is I'll end up no where. With no one. With nothing in my possetion but my soul. and I feel like my soul is clean...clensed. 
I'm proud of myself. I quit and cut almost all the drama out of my life and it feels good. I feel like I've mellowed somehow and that because I have I have a greater chance to be what I want to be without the complications of problems or emotional baggage. I feel so good about it I want to try and make a blog. There will be no cut downs on people who make me mad or upset. Just me talking about what I want and what I believe. Weather it be religon, relationships, family, collage, phobias, books, or food.

My new site link is blogs-of-freedom.webs.com/

I will update and blog as often as I can and if you really wish to read and help me with topics for each bloggin entry let me now by droping me a txt, comment, or geust book at my site.

Really thats all I wanted to say so tootaloo

I know its been uber forever since I've been on here and updated but not many things have happened.

-I still dont have a car
- kroger still sucks
- grades slightly improving
- still bettering myself
- portfolio finished
- maybe getting a new job
- so tire

Thats the jist of it.

I did have the alternitive prom sunday night and cuz my date bailed i had to take someone else...ug. it was still amazingly fun. there was half an hour of crossdressers lipsinging, dancing, and fire breathing. OH! and the fire breathing drag queen stapled money to her body....was EPIC! I danced the whole night. I'm so glad people in g.s.a.s dislike rap cuz it wasnt played at ALL durring prom. it was eleco dance song after electro pop song and no slow songs. It felt like a club and i have to say...I love gay boys <3

Sadly my thighs hurt lika bitch from the 4 hours straight of dancing T-T
mega frowny face.
But the whole expereace remeinded me about how much I love music and dancing even though I dance horridly and lika skank. oh wells.

txt me. call me. comment if yahs wants tah talks

I'm Angry

I'm sad

I'm stressed

I want art to burn and me along with it



very emo of me I know

So as some of you may know... I went to my friend Ch.'s 21st birthday tonight and I was responsible in the fact that I didn't let anyone pressure me or that I didn't drink like a dumb ass. Sadly I did drink a little. I had to leave the party at 11 so at 8 I drunk less then a half of a pussy wine cooler and it completely wore off by the time I had to leave (thank you higher being, sorry mom). but when I had to leave I was so worried about 2 guys that I care a shit loud about. M. (only one of you probably knows him) drank 3 beers and 2 shots and was freaking drunk so I was helping him all night so he wouldn't hurt him self, he kept saying he was a jerk and I told him no because I'm his friend and I accept all the bad and good that comes with him. And my friend C. who's practicly my freaking brother had 6 beers from 8 or 9 to 11 and I was worried he'd drink more and hurt himself so I told W. (andother brother) and A. (M's bro B.) to keep an eye on them and both C. and M. swore to me they wouldn't drink anymore. thankfully nether of them will be driving tonight.

Sorry to say this to the internet world all like this but I wanted to say something cuz it worries me sometimes and I really wanted to cry when I left thinking about if they had another drink and things got worse b/c I wasn't there to stop them or help them to not hurt themselves. I actually thought about leaving at the very begining of the party but I didn't (stupid girl)

Anyways morgan's been outa commition, LOVE YOU HONEY HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER! and I still and trying to at least atempt to move on from the Deeg.

He called me "yays!"
I asked him "y?" he called and he said to hear my voice

"awwwwwwwwwwwwwww!"


so yah, eventful night -_-'''


Ima sleep now and try not to freak my shit on what might happen while I'm not at that party

wish me luck!

~Isabelle
Gabrielle Suzanne Joubert

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On another note crappy ass break down from hell yesterday...-_- ugh. I was thinking all yesterday then at work yesterday I was like "shit....this really sucks" and It's so odd you know...cuz I haven't (surprisingly) felt this way in forever and on the way to morgan's to finish our project I was bawling...higher being knows I hate it... and I couldn't NOT talk to myself about everything. I guess what I need is to sit down and have an hour type rant session or just talk to myslef. I won't bother you guys with the details of my life unless you ask.

I still don't think right now that I have the right to talk about personal problems with everyone or A person but I will clue you guys in once and a while ;)
But I'm kinda of afraid of my life at this point. I still love him so much but I need to move on some how while he's liing in utah. It would really help if it didn't feel like i was cheating everytime i see a guy I think is cute or even kinda like. People tell me to just get a guy, any guy, that I need to get over DJ cuz they think he's a loser or bad for me. I don't think he is. I think back and every time we broke up I would make a huge attempt to improve myself so I can be his friend at LEST and it's really made me a little more mature each time. He makes me better

tonight will be the night I'll fall inlove with you
over again.

Have you ever been one of those paranoid people to wonder why you exist and why people know you? Have you ever just stoped to think "Maybe what I have to say isn't as important as what another has to say or even at all." I have always thought that what I have to say should wait untill other say what they need and feel better. What good is it to vent about my week from hell when some of the people I love have been poor, angry, raped, kicked out, rejected, or even hit? This whole week I've held my tounge cuz I truely care about everyone. Even my horrid mother. I still don't think I have a right to bitch because some people I know are still going through some shit and I believe I should be there for them. I won't cry, I won't hurt myself, I won't complain, I won't bat an eye untill their pain is relieved, cuz believe it or not I love you. weather you know it or not or even want it. I love all of you guys. Even if you use me, abuse me, hate me, or love me back I will always love you. All I ask is that when the time comes for me to open up I have a loveing hand to hold and a listening ear and a warm embrace wouldn't hurt. I just wanted to say that.

only that.



and I love you all please remember that.


<<Isabelle>>
Gabrielle Suezanne Joubert

   so yah..grades blow out the fucking hormonal teenager who is gay and lives in california where the terminator termanated gay marrage.... not a good thing! I hate grades, I hate finals, and I hate PSAT scores...

on another note mrs. corey chose one of my poems for her magizine and even loved the poem called "Beings" which is about human vs. alien probable behavior (darn you morgan and your extraterestral influence!) ...very intellagent and awesome XD

well...if I cant be a bunny then I am sooooooo I suicide girl!!!! Love them ^-^

think I'd make a good one?

...party rocked....look at morgan's entry


and I think I wanna be a playboy bunny

 fuck Mrs. G.
She is a ho.
Also, Everybody Have Fun Tonight.








MY SUBJECT IS T.


p.s.- morgan wrote from she is a ho down

Why am I hear?
This abyss-like hell
I am me
and there he be
a singing dove
(a screaming raven)
Why is it I try?
only to hide
(Stupid and craven)
The love is there
(always has been)
to late we start
and now we depart
from one another once again
into this abyss-like hell
While you jump the crevous
( I'll stay behind)
you'll flourish and grow
(while I wither and die)
You'll be happy for "shore"
on the other side
Why is it we laugh?
this last outstanding day together
I cry behind my thickened lences
While we may never
be together again

DAMN this abyss-like hell!
This rotting cage!
This cliff-hanging nail!
This lightning closer to my heat of hearts

As I rant and rave you gallantly smile
and love
and hug
and kiss
Your thoughtful gift forever close to my heart.
(I cried you know)
I'll be strong for you!
You champions of cheers!
You king of peers!
You God of seers!

Your harem of woman await your return
while this one weeps and tries to turn
over her new leaf
for you I try

I love you
Now till the day I die

I haven't been on in forever...like 13 weeks but woot! posting now! I am in virginia...weird right? and it rocks here...think I wanna move here!

They have an OUTDOOR mall...its just so dang pretty with all those white lights hanging from the top above the brick walkways and the bushes and flowers EVERYWHERE...le sigh~
Also 2 story borders!!!! OMFG!

So a little deppressing subject, DJ moves on Wednesday T-T.
I really don't want him to but he wants to and I am happy that if he moves that its at a place he likes. I'm trying ever so hard to be calm about it as pryer to 3 months ago when he told me and I ended up crying in his arms for half an hour. I do love him... alot! You know that feeling you get when you get your first kiss? or maybe when you got that long wished for christmas persent? or your first car? your best friend hugs you? when someone says "I love you" for the first time ever and they absolutly mean it? how about when you have your hallmark? Thats how I feel! I feel so comfortable with him. I dont hide anything, I dont try to be something I am not, I just melt into his arms. GOD! I am being such a girl...lmao I am one but you know what I mean.

We desided once he moves we will be friends.


it will be hard if we do the long distance thing again so I think this is for the best.






On a happier note!
M-O-R-G-A-N!!!!!!!
you fucking rock with a passion of 20 japanese boys and some little korean insest rappers thrown in!
...dont hate masterbate!
I am so happy me and her talk and hang in the art class of DOOM! it's kind of bonding ^-^


blah ok I gotta stop my aunts kicking me off! Dont know when I'll be on next so syanara!!!